| Somewhere between the procrastination, homework, friendships,and nasty Cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the "i love yous."
and the "what are we doing tonights." Somewhere between all the changing,
growing, skipping classes, studying for tests, pretending to be styding
for tests, and the down-right not studying for tests, i forgot what it was like to grow up. I forgot what it felt like to get so close to people, and get so far away from others. I forgot that its not everyone thats changing its me that changed. I forgot that life actually moves moment to moment and time doesnt stay still forever.
I remember writting entries on how old i was getting and how much i missed the past and was afraid of the future, silly thing is I was writting them doing freshman year. Now I know why i was scared of the future, I was afraid to grow up and move on from everything that seemed so perfect. I see why highschool is something you remember forever. And why friends are always there. I see why friends become more important then family, and how you always end up saying "remember when".
I love waking up early and going to school, dreading the fact that one your going to school and two that you stayed up to late the night before, then going to bed that night even later, knowing your going to regret it in the morning. I love meeting knew people, and creating so many bonds with them. I love inside jokes, and laughing when you cant remember why you even began laughing. I love the "smell" of school, and the football games, and the competitions and the school work and test and everything. I love the actual life of highschool.
I miss everything from freshman year. I miss my friends, my family. I miss the fact of being the young ones of the bunch. I miss looking up to all the upperclassmen and dreaming to be one someday. I miss losing my voice in the stands from screaming. I miss the bus rides and just everything
Senior year is approaching and Im going to make this the best year yet.Im looking forward to somethings and more or less others. Im looking forward to the senior trips and the music trips. To Marching band competitions and football games. Im looking forward to homecoming and prom. To halloween and christmas. Maybe even graduation. Who knows.
Just as of now, I dont want school to start, maybe because im loving summer so much, right now, and I dont want this feeling to end. I guess it will Tuesday, but then again its the start of something new, a whole new school year something that maybe might be something even better then this summer.
Sorry for the random rambling, I was just writting what was on my mind. Have a good last weekend of summer, and I'll see everyone on Tuesday <33
Much love <3
-Cassidy Rae <33
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